Gremlining, Again
Tuesday November 23, 2004
I woke up in a negative space and found myself gremlining all through the Holosync Solutions cd. I kept catching it and stopping myself and going back to my breathing only to find myself drawn back into negative speculation and conversation. In psychology it might be called ruminating. I was very deep into it and consequently was pretty depressed. Tom and I went for a walk and I thought it would help. It didn’t seem to.
When we got back from the walk there was a message from Faol telling me that he needed to talk to me, that they needed to talk with me. I knew something must be wrong. I called him back and we were on speakerphone. He did his usual round about setting the scene so much that I was really alarmed. I was not happy about the issue once he finally got to it. It disturbed me quite a bit but I wasn’t in a good enough state to really discuss it. I told him I needed to get off and he let me go. But I was really not in a good place after that.
Later in the day I wrote him an email about how I was feeling. I knew he
wouldn’t get it either until he got home from work, which is after 1
am our time, or in the morning when he got up. I warned Tom that there was
a potential that Faol would call after work but he didn’t do that.
Copyright © 2004 Kyril Oakwind