November Monthly Tarot Reading

Last Month's reading

Where I am centered this month – in change, realization, and disruption (The Tower)

I would like to believe that this refers to bringing down the Tower of assumptions so that something new can be built. It does often show up when something that seems like a difficult disaster-like thing happens but sometimes that is really very minor of a matter in retrospect.

It has the stroke of enlightenment that can represent a realization, which changes beliefs or attitudes. I may be looking at my beliefs and making changes or some external event may cause me to change a core belief. Mary Greer also suggests that this could represent a drastic self-improvement program – diet, therapy, fasting, etc. Somehow seems very unlikely to me but hey I could imagine that I actually focus on that.

I believe this refers to two situations with Faol and Joyful, one was an issue between them in which I mediated and so was very affected by, and the other was something that they wanted to discuss with me that led to some difficult emotions but that we got through. I am feeling differently about their relationship than I felt before.

My body – is stressed (9 of Swords)

Swords often appear when there is pain or turbulence. This card shows someone in the night perhaps not able to sleep because of her thoughts or awaking from a nightmare. To me this suggests some kind of health issue, which may turn out to be more of a scare than of serious concern. This is also a card of depression, suffering, and guilt. Or perhaps just sleepless nights.

I think this may just refer to worries and concerns, and how stressed and tired that makes me. I have also had a lot of aches and pains, which I am trying to address with exercises but have so far only made them more prominent. My blood pressure was up a bit again too but not high enough for medication or anything like that.

My emotions – are bright and cheerful (The Sun)

Well this looks amazingly good considering the two cards above. This represents joy or at least intense enjoyment and happiness, optimism, enlightenment, and clarity. On a mundane level this can indicate rekindling relationships or experiencing renewed enthusiasm for something in one’s life.

I can't say that I have been bright or cheerful but did get a few things done that I wanted to, and had a couple of very good days. However, I did notice that I was cheerful several days for little reason. That could be hormonal or it could be that I need to take more responsibility for internal happiness regardless of what is going on externally.

My spirit – has angst (7 of Swords)

This seems to me to reflect spiritual angst, perhaps grappling with an ethical problem. It suggests some level of deception or avoidance of a problem.

This strongly relates to the issues that cropped up between Faol and Joyful that I was involved in. But I also feel it may suggest borrowing troubles. Their problems and the processing of their problems led to a lot of depression, worrying, and gremlining on my part. I have to learn to separate better.

My mind – is withdrawing and seeking a new direction (8 of cups)

Withdrawal or retreat from relationships that are draining or in which dissatisfaction is being experienced. An energy drain or a sense of aimlessness leading to a change in direction. Reevaluating relationships, belief or values and changing priorities.

I have experienced some pulling back emotionally due to the amount of processing and issues between Faol and Joyful. But I don't see myself as going in an entirely different direction.

How the Past affects this month – letting go and moving on (10 of Swords, reversed)

Upright this can mean paralysis so reversed it might suggest being able to move forward. Something needs to be released and let go of. It could suggest a reversal of difficulties as well. Letting go of an obsession. Perhaps it reflects the idea that something that I considered a betrayal in the past is redressed or I am able to let go of it and move on.

I would say that I am still experiencing some paralysis of motivation. I am not sure what might need to be released but whatever it is I haven't done it.

Where I am moving towards the future – I am moving towards suffering (3 of Swords)

This card suggests heartache and I have often gotten it when I was feeling very upset, crying, heart break. If this is where I am moving to based on this month then what is the most useful thing I can do with this? How can keeping an awareness of this help me to change my attitude or approach so that I can minimize this? Is there a way that I can choose a different course?

This also seems to have been the usual upset over a situation and then it passes.

All together these cards seem to suggest the loss of something important in my life, possibly a relationship with the resulting sense of heartbreak, sorrow, physical pain, nightmares, etc. And yet with the Sun in the place of emotion there is also something very freeing about whatever happens and a renewal of life progress suggested, or so I hope. It is also possible that it merely refers to some fight, disagreement, or incident that causes unhappiness in the moment.

It seems to have been referring to a fight between Faol and Joyful that spilled over to me, and a disagreement about ethics, and a specific incident that caused me unhappiness but has now moved on. So it didn’t turn out to be as painful or as serious as I thought it could be from the extreme quality of the Tower, 9 or swords, 3 of swords, etc.


   

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