Kyril's Journal -- December 31, 2004

New Year's Eve

Friday December 31, 2004

We picked up Vivre Draco on Thursday. We got out late because I was searching for patterns for fetishwear and not finding them. I called him after we did some shopping but before the food shopping to see if he was going to be ready or needed more time. He was very grumpy as he was just up. After we shopped and got to his place late he was in a much better mood although he still wasn’t ready when we got there. He had to take his computer apart yet.

I got home to a message from Faol so I called him back and we talked for an hour. I was pleasantly surprised as I was not sure I would hear from him again while he was visiting Raven. He seemed in a much better mood than the previous call.

Tom and Vivre Draco were working on connecting through the network, which is always a pain for some unknown reason. We downloaded lots of video files to watch, about 30G. All three hard drives are full to the brim now so we must watch some videos the next few days to free up a bit more space in computers.

We talked some then had pizza for dinner, no home cooked meal for my boy this time. I showed him the computer game that my family got me for my birthday/mother’s day, Journey to the Wild Divine. He was very critical: pre-rendered graphics so there is no real-time ability to turn around and look at things, little movies of interaction with characters and once into the scene no way out until the whole scene plays out, and he also said the characters talk to people like they are 4 year olds, and everything moves too slow. I, on the other hand, like the peaceful and harmonious atmosphere, love the graphics, and am happy to watch the scene play out while enjoying the spiritual approach and opportunity to practice meditative states of calming my energy or arousing my energy. But he did enjoy some of the tasks accomplished with the biofeedback of increasing or decreasing one’s energy levels. He used his annoyance to arouse his energy though, which is not the point of the game, in my opinion :)

Today he slept until 2 pm when I woke him as we need to get him home so we don’t have to drive in the New Year’s Eve traffic of partygoers and drinkers. The light in the living room went off sometime between about 6 am and 7 am this morning so I know he was up quite late or early. That is his typical schedule though. I am sorry our visit is so short but he has work tomorrow and likes to get back to his stuff. I want to scan in some pics from a figure drawing book of his.

We ended up leaving much later than we had hoped but all went well. We stopped at Cubs and bought him a week’s worth of groceries so we have done our parental duty as it were :)

So the year ends on a much better note than last year. Last year at this time I was waiting for the BoD of CAW and the Clergy to try and work out differences that I was very much concerned could not be resolved. And as it turned out that was true. It colored the end of my year and the beginning of the next.

Faol and I have grown closer this year. He got me a ring and said I was his second :) primary. We have continued to have our ups and downs, our difficult conversations, and our resolutions. We have processed a great deal with one of his other lovers, and processed about his other relationships. But we seem to be doing well at the moment and I am going to take that into the next year with me to start off the year from an optimistic place.

Faol changed job shifts a few months ago so is getting more sleep. When I am there I have more time for some of my own interests than previously and a more regular schedule, which helps my energy level and will contribute to the continuation of the following.

Tom and I have gotten a few projects done or have them in process from the later part of this year. We built a new path and changed our entryway and so changed the flow of energy in and around our home. I hope that continues to manifest as growth and improvement in the coming year.

My mother moved back to the Chicago area from Florida and is now close enough to visit occasionally. We took my youngest with us to visit her for Thanksgiving. It was very good for her to get to see him all grown up and for him to spend some time with his grandmother. We also visited my oldest and his wife this summer. I wish that we had the time and energy to see them all more often.

Some of us have been working on starting a new church, an offshoot of CAW, more or less, but it doesn’t seem to really be going anywhere at the moment. I am not ready to give up on it yet but I don’t have much hope that it will work out either. Still you never know. Whether it does or not I think the effort helped some of us deal with the loss when CAW was shut down by its BoD.

I have been working on doing more exercise again and have expectations of maintaining it, of course, that remains to be seen. So life has been better the latter half of last year than the beginning and I choose to take that as a trend that will continue this year :)