December's Tarot Results
Last Month's Tarot reading
1. where I am centered this month – 4 of Cups
2. my body – Judgement
3. my emotions – Page of Swords
4. my spirit – 10 of Wands
5. my mind – Queen of Swords
6. how the past affects this month – 8 of Swords
7. where I am moving towards the future – Wheel of Fortune
Where I am centered this month – is in looking at my emotions/relationships
The image of the 4 of Cups is a man leaning against a tree. 3 goblets are on the grass in front of him, while a 4th is floating to the side. This can mean being focused on the situation, emotions, relationships before one while ignoring or missing something else. It can also mean manifesting one’s desires. Meditating on a desired outcome or dreaming it into existence. I prefer to think that this is something that is coming into being rather than my being simply caught up in fantasy. But in any case there is something rather quiet and peaceful about the scene and the man seems relaxed. That seems a good place to be right now. Then again it could be Faol looking at his three main relationships and the one that may be growing now and my being centered in him…
Nothing stood out for me relating to this card from last month. I suppose it largely referred to contemplating relationships.
My body – is being reawakened and renewed, rising from the ashes (I hope). The following interpretation speaks of healing, great transformation, and renewal. So I am definitely going with that idea. This card in the Robin Wood Tarot deck is that of a Woman outlined by a Phoenix rising out of a Cauldron or perhaps just standing in it. But I have the feeling of the myth about the Cauldron of Rebirth, and the shamanistic view of it where the body goes into the cauldron and the flesh is boiled off the bones, and all is reduced to the elements. Then the person is reconstituted as a new healed, regenerated self. I would like to think that I would feel some renewal and healing.
I went to look at the art the tattooist had ready for me of the Phoenix that I will be getting in February.
My Emotions – are running ahead of me.
One of the interpretations I came across for the Page of Swords is detachment. I like this card in this deck. I see her as not just running with a sword but of dancing with it. So I see a quality of joyousness and rushing ahead. Pages are often messengers as well so perhaps I need to pay more attention to my insights and intuitions coming to me intellectually this next month.
So far really haven't been joyous. I have tended to be detached and then suddenly enmeshed in emotional response.
My Spirit – is feeling burdened and overwhelmed.
It certainly seems like there will be a sense of carrying a heavy burden, or having a lot of work. But one of the things that I always note about this card is that the person is holding the “burdens” in front of their face so that is all that can be seen rather than lifting them up to the shoulders or carrying them on the back, which would at least be an easier way to carry them. Some suggest putting some of the wands down and that may be needed but it is also possible that taking a different attitude will make the load seem lighter.
“Perhaps you are being asked to shoulder too many responsibilities, and must figure out at which point to say "enough is enough"! You risk accomplishing nothing if you take on more than you can handle. So today, do what's important...and rid yourself of the rest!”
http://www.tarotscopes.com/10wands.html
I have been feeling like there is more to do than I can accomplish. But some of this has been chores, not anything really important. There have been times when I felt weighed down.
My Mind – is in control and focused.
There may be some sorrow but there is also attention to detail, accuracy, high standards, and a dedication to truth. This can be about seeing exactly what is, rather than what others would wish one to see. Perception is clear and there is clarity of mind.
I seem to have underlying sorrow about my life and one of my relationships. I believe it will never be what I wish it would be. And so I wait to see if it can be enough as it is.
How the past affects this month – feelings of helplessness prevent seeing solutions to problems.
I have allowed my thoughts to be restricted and narrowed. This makes perceiving the way out of a problem more difficult. Self-imposed bondage? And inaction. My choices have created limitations and a kind of entrapment that makes me feel helpless in my current situations. But even now I am surrounded by tools to help me and it is my choice that keeps me in the situation or from discovering the way out.
Faol tried bondage gear on me:) It doesn't do much for me psychologically but it was interesting, of course, we really did just try it on.
Where I am moving towards the future – is change, I prefer to think for the better.
The wheel turns bringing better times, abundance, change, and growth. Something good comes about by chance or just out of the blue. New circumstances brought about by the turn of the wheel. Ups and downs, cycles and patterns. Coincidences and effortless success.
Well it will be interesting to see what actually happens after drawing this card, won’t it?
So far nothing has happened that seems related to it. Once home there was
an upturn in my energies.
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