Monthly Review
So the first month of the New Year has come and gone. When I came home from my last trip I had decided to try and do more around the house so I took over doing the garbage, filling the birdfeeder, and shocking the hot tub, all of which were Tom’s Sunday chores. I have been putting the radio on and dancing several times a week. It has helped my mood quite a bit. It also was a month of small insights from looking at my life as made up of moments to looking at how I have learned to have anxiety and worry as a general response. I finally caught up with the Sweetwood Finances but it was quite a pain and actually ended up taking several weeks on and off to finish.
Faol went on vacation for a week so we only had a couple of phone conversations while he was gone. For the next week we talked something like 2-3 hours every day, catching up. Then I did a triple fast, phone, computer, and juice so we didn’t talk for several days again.
During the fast I had an insight that I was meant to walk the pattern and maintain the egregore of balance, harmony, and peace, which led to my making a 10 by 10 labyrinth on a tarp and walking it for the new moon. I started a new exercise pattern of doing an exercycle session in the morning and then a full session in the afternoon. And after a big snow I discovered that I really had made some progress as I was able to do more than I expected or could have done a few months ago.
Tom gave me a digital camera for Yule and I have been taking pictures of things like ice crystals on pine needles and ice covering rocks. I have also taken quite a few of Tom something we didn’t have much of as he has been the one taking pictures in the last few years.
We were kind of snowed in and Tom didn’t think he could get it plowed which left me upset about not being able to get out to the airport but it all worked out after all. I took a shuttle from the airport to Faol’s house. The last week of January was up and down emotions as Faol has been funky and back to Raven jonesing, something he hasn’t done for awhile. I realized that I haven’t been happy for a while – certainly I have moments of pleasure and happiness but in general I am not. I decided to do some study and magickal work. So I began reading Well of the Light by R.J. Stewart, which includes a training program using the book and doing journeys into the UnderWorld to learn Faerie healing.
Tuesday February 1
We woke up and made love, then went for a walk but this time up to Home Depot to get hedge trimmers and back home again. It was a good 40 min. there and back plus the walking about in the store. Faol got right to trimming the overgrown Ficus while I got us some Emergen-c. I helped pick up the branches and fill the yard waste barrel. I moved it over near his pickup truck so that I could climb up on the back bumper and step into the barrel to compact the leaves and branches so more would fit. He finally got a second one from a neighbor to fit it all. Tomorrow is garbage day so we will be able to return it right away. Afterwards he took a bath and I made us tuna salad for lunch. We had a spelt tortilla wrap. I had a large salad to go with it though after Faol left for work.
I spoke with Tom while eating lunch, then went to work on the finances for a couple of hours but realized that I needed to clean off the altar, which was quite dusty. So I took everything off it, washed it, cleaned off everything that had been on it, and set it up again so that I could do an Imbolc ritual later. Then I sat down and entered receipts. I did the dishes, cleaned the cat box, and took the garbage out before sitting down to read more of Well of Light. Then I did Holosync. I had leftovers for dinner then made honey cream cheese crescent rolls to use in my ritual and for later snacking.
Finally I got ready and did my ritual. It felt good. I also did my monthly tarot reading.
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