Movie and Sushi!
Sunday March 6, 2005
I called Faol when Tom went to take a shower because we would be going out shortly to see a movie. Faol had wanted to call me early so we could talk but he was in bed when I called. He had been out late the night before. But he pulled himself awake and we had a very nice conversation. I gathered up the garbage and did some chores while we talked. Tom got ready and went to get the car so we could take the garbage down the driveway to the street on our way out and I got off the phone just as he pulled up to the house.
We saw Constantine, which Tom said was fun and I also enjoyed. While it was violent it was different than inhumanity of people to people since it was demons from hell largely. The interpretation of the Angel Gabriel as essentially a fanatic was rather interesting. The image of hell as essentially being this world in ruins and burning and peopled with demons was interesting, as if hell was the moment of apocalypse and loss held for eternity. We did feel that the fell down a little on the almost vision of heaven that was afforded but all in all we enjoyed it. Afterwards I found that it had triggered my own visualization creating mechanism so that in the bathroom afterwards as I was wondering why we respond so much to the negative conflict driven stories like this one rather than bright light, beauty, powerfully glowing color, gorgeous landscapes, fluffy bunny, joy and pleasure movies, or rather why they don’t make them, I found myself recalling the scenes of Constantine walking through hell but adding my own touches of a beautiful bright white daisy growing up in the middle of the scene, vines and flowers, deep primeval forest with sunlight filtering through in rays that are filled with bright little reflective dust motes, my son at my breast with that sweet milky smile as he keeps my nipple sucked deep into his mouth with tongue and still grins his delight with mouth and eyes. It was a strange sensation to juxtapose the images with the ones from the movie but I like my version of heaven anyway.
Afterwards Tom and I went shopping for stiffener for the drapery heading, then went to State Street and Wasabi for sushi. Yum! While dragon roll, (apparently a fusion roll, made of tempura shrimp, cucumber, avocado and eel), isn’t listed the waitress told me that I could write it down and they would make it anyway. Tom liked the dragon roll too though he didn’t think he was going to when I told him it had eel :) So we also chose a Philly roll, shrimp tempura roll, and something else I can’t remember at the moment. I had a small pour of Sake, tea, and water with it all. And I ate too much but I was happy.
Faol had asked me to call him again when I got home. He wanted to talk with
me more and since we had been having so many difficult discussions lately
I, too, especially wanted to spend some time together that was pleasurable.
He was available and able to talk with me and he enjoyed my Sake buzz. While
he installed a Tiffany style lamp as his porch light and did other work we
chatted. He interrupted my description of my day and headed off on his own
tangent but when I told him I didn’t feel good about that because it
left me feeling he was uninterested in what happened to me he apologized and
I continued. When I was getting ready to hang up and go spend the rest of
the evening with Tom he apologized again and let me know that he was interested
and didn’t mean to make me feel that way. I appreciated that he remembered
it through the conversation and made that extra effort to let me feel appreciated.
Sometimes I think that my tendency to let things go has encouraged him in
bad behavior as has my letting it build up inside until it comes out as a
collection of things. I am trying to let him know right away like I did then,
and then let it go. Wish me luck at changing my own behavior rather than focusing
on his.
Copyright © 2005 Kyril Oakwind