Kyril's Journal --

Triple Fast

Thursday March 24, 2005

Today is the second day of my full moon triple fast and it feels good. Yesterday I spent the morning and part of the day reading a book on eclipses by Jansky and looking at the coming Solar eclipse (April 8th but not visible from here) in the charts of myself, Tom, Faol, Raven, Ron, Joyful, and Maggi. We are not really the family group that we seemed we might become based on our relationships of a few years ago but I find myself using this set of charts when I want to do a little research on a technique. If it doesn’t prove to be useful and revealing here I discard it. Magi Astrology had some interesting ideas about Chiron aspects showing whether a relationship would be long term or not so I tried it with Tom and I, Faol and I, Faol and Raven, Faol and Joyful, Joyful and DM. Tom and I have a few of the aspects that are supposed to be very powerful for a relationship but we have a couple of the one’s that are supposed to be deadly for a relationship as well. Maybe they are right though we are only ½ way through our 35th year of marriage, and you never know, but it doesn’t seem very accurate to me. So I discarded that synastry technique (did check it out with other relationships and drew the same conclusions) as not very useful in my astrological practice.

Anyway looking at potential effects of the April 8th eclipse in these charts was interesting. It will be more interesting to see what if anything happens and how it relates to what I thought might occur.

Later Tom and I went for a walk. The driveway was running :) The ice and snow is melting but the ground was still frozen so not absorbing the resultant run off. We meandered down the driveway avoiding the very slick wet icy patches as well as the slippery mud patches, and the really slippery thin ice over slick mud. It turned out to be a more strenuous walk than usual what with holding my body differently, pushing off the ground with my toes cautiously with each step, but enjoyable nonetheless.

I spent some time hemming one of the drapes as well. I commented to Tom that the day turned out relatively well balanced between meditating, astrological study, exercises, a walk out in nature, work on the drape, some reading about quantum physics and dreaming, and a little tv.

Today I stayed off the computer (didn’t use the internet at all yesterday even if I was using my computer for the astrological program), except for first thing in the morning when I remembered that I had forgotten to go and dump the junk mail from the folder at my ISP so I knew that I would have email bouncing by the time the fast was over. So I did go on the web to the interface for my ISP to delete the junk mail. It really is annoying as the only choice is to discard after 7 days, not immediately, and it builds up enough that if I don’t download my email at least every other day it starts bouncing now because of the junk mail taking up my space. Of course, I could pay more to purchase a larger mailbox but I am not paying more to store junk! I deleted about 700 junk emails then got off without even checking out my regular email.

Instead I spent more of my day reading The Dreaming Universe; by Fred Alan Wolf, Phd. During my exercycle session I had a new perspective (for me anyway) on astrological interpretation occur to me. This is the third fast in a row now where I feel I had interesting insights. The first one was an insight that led to making a portable labyrinth. The last fast was an emotional/psychological development insight that I am still working with, and have, I think, made some progress on. This time so far the insight is applied to an intellectual/idea realm.

I thought of looking at the astrological planets as clouds of possibilities rather than points. Planets that are close together whether or not they are conjunct by orb still are overlapping clouds, interpenetrating fields of influence, which affect the expression in one’s life. Then these possibilities are all vibrating to their own frequencies, interacting with other possibility clouds.

Those in trine or sextile, for example, are basically resonating with each other reinforcing their expression. Planetary clouds as it were, in square aspect are creating an interference pattern that is disruptive creating a need to find some way to manage the right angle pull due to difficulty in expression. Opposition, interference patterns of duality seem to call for rising above the duality and back and forth teeter totter to find a third solution that integrates them both.

I discussed it with Tom and demonstrated a conversation between my Moon caught between Saturn and Neptune (hmm I just noticed the implications in my choice of caught rather than nestled) but not conjunct by orb either one, and my Sun, Mars, and Mercury overlapping possibility clouds. These two groups are square by sign with 1 end of each cluster actually in orb for the square. He said I should do the same for clients in the first 5 – 10 min of a consultation and use it to lead into a more in depth discussion. I’ll have to think about it. I know myself, and my chart but don’t know if I would be that effective or accurate with others. In any case I really enjoyed the intellectual rush.

I finished one of the drapes today, all pleated, hemmed, and the fabric folded along the pleats then pressed, and hung on the window. Yay! The method I chose to use as a quick way of getting the folds to work was to have Tom at the bottom and I at the top of the drape folding up the pleats into a narrow bundle. Then I just used the iron on the top layer pressing down turned the whole bundle over and repeated it. It worked more or less but on the next one I guess I will fold each pleat and iron it as I go, one by one. Ah well.

Faol called this morning. Of course, I couldn’t take the call. Raven had dialed the phone and handed it to him. That must have been a surprise. Tom spoke to him and then conveyed his message: he would call me again on Saturday when my fast was done and he loves me :) My understanding was that he and Raven had agreed to spend this week of their visit without phone calls or talking to other partners, lovers, girlfriends, etc. I was quite surprised by the call but pleased, of course. So now I am expecting the chance to connect with Faol in a few days when my fast is finished. However, I know that things change and they may get busy so am not invested in whether it happens on Saturday in particular but just that I get a chance to speak with him before I leave for CA on Tuesday. I am a little relieved since it felt odd not to speak with him for the week before I arrive. I very much appreciate her support in this.

Joyful also called today but we had just finished making love so Tom didn’t jump up to answer. (Not making love is not part of my fasting!) Later Tom emailed her to let her know I was fasting. I had not thought to let her know as she is on two of my email lists that I did notify about being offline and phone but you never know when people will be behind in their list mail.