Kyril's Journal --

Pre-Lucid Dream

Friday March 25, 2005

I was awake a lot in the night so decided to try to sleep a little later this morning. I had a pre-lucid dream as I remember asking Tom in my dream if he thought I was dreaming but he thought things seemed normal. And I agreed with him because time seemed to be moving normally and everything was complex and textured. I was in a very spacious and bright house that was Faol’s. He was going to work. I came into the room and found that he had turned off the power to my computer because it used too much power just sitting there when it wasn’t being used and he put it in a teacup. I was upset but Tom told me that the tea wouldn’t hurt it. I followed after Faol as he went down a long hall to the outside to tell him that if he kept doing that I wouldn’t bring the laptop back.

I went back inside and I was amazed at the house. I mentioned to Tom that it didn’t seem like Faol’s house at all. One room I peeked in was a small one with a sewing room and many items of clothing/dresses hanging on hangars. I assumed it was someone’s sewing room with the things they had made. Faol’s room was upstairs and I vaguely remember having looked in there and something about there not being any clutter. There was a large central section open all the way up to the top story. In that section against one wall was several burgundy colored cot/beds that were hanging on the wall. A teen age Lebleu was sleeping in one of them. But they were very narrow and I was concerned he would fall out. He leaned out a little and turned over assuring me that it wasn’t a problem at all. I continued looking around and saw a young Vivre Draco who informed me that he had wondered about the color of the cots because they looked one color from where he was but different from another place so Lebleu had gone up to check it out.

Tom was on the floor above looking at things. I vaguely remember that I was looking or doing something with plants when I thought it might be a dream and spoke to Tom about it. I woke up seeing Tom upstairs.

When Tom woke up this morning I was in the high energy inspirational phase of my fast and it took me 2 hours of expressing it verbally and much conversation to begin to come down again. We started out talking about the dreams we had each had then segued into discussion of Fred Alan Wolf’s Book “The Dreaming Universe” with its information on dream research and theories (1991) It is fascinating speculation applying quantum physics theory to dreams – he really does do some wild speculation and extrapolation from quantum particle theory to assuming that large groups of particles such as that involved in living things operate the same way though at this time there isn’t such evidence. But what wonderful wild wishful thinking!

From there we wandered into personal insights about what I need in my relationship with Faol that I am not getting largely because of what seems like ADD style pf processing (and his different perspective on life), along with our not finding compensatory patterns. I hope I remember this so I can discuss it with him. Perhaps we can find ways around it. Tom and I also talked about one of our long time difficult patterns, a relatively minor one, and applied the idea of translation from one’s personal “language” into some one else’s in order to adequately achieve communication. And I expressed my sense of it not being fair that I am the one that is always supposed to do the translation. Tom agreed and said he would try.

We took a 20 min dip in the hot tub and continued talking. When I wrote that line there was something that I wanted to write down but Tom brought something up right then and I totally forgot it. And I still can’t bring it to mind. Sigh… And I complain about Faol’s ADD like symptoms!

I also got the bottom hems of the other drape of the pair pinned and ironed and sewn both drape and lining as well as one side hem ironed, turned over again, ironed and pinned but was feeling tired so stopped. Tonight will be a full moon ritual and labyrinth walk so I don’t want to get too tired now.

The bread machine is busy making cinnamon raisin bread to break my fast with in circle later tonight. Afterward I will have my favorite soft-boiled egg on toast. Yum!

One of the other things we talked about is the Holosync program and my clear sense that I have been making progress in my life over the last 6 months. I felt a definite regression last month and have been trying to fight my way out of that this trip home. But despite having less energy this trip than I was hoping I haven’t stopped moving forward just slowed down a lot. I will have gotten one pair of drapes made and hung, updated my journal quite a bit, started a picture page at Flickr, worked on answering 501c3 related IRS questions with the Sweetwood BOD, updated a couple Sweetwood subpages on our website, updated some of the BelSummer pages, did a Tarot counseling session for a friend, completed two triple fasts and obtained much insight from them. And of course continued the usual cooking, dishes, taking out the garbage, feeding the birds, exercising general life stuff.

So life is good. I still don’t have any proof that the Holosync program is responsible but I feel like it could be. Then again maybe it has just taken me this long to recover or being to recover from my father’s death a couple of years ago, followed by the political crap that led to my retirement from CAW, followed by the ending of CAW as a church. For now though I purchased the next level of the Holosync program. I’ll revist the question in 6 months or so when it would be time for level 3.