Monthly Review
Last month was filled with questioning myself, my life, my relationships. I experienced angst about the ending of CAW and rehashed the mourning, and general spiritual angst as I feel a lack of structured spiritual work in my life. I had times of feeling dissatisfaction with myself for a number of reasons including not living up to what I say I want in my life.
I didn’t sew another one of my livingroom drapes yet. I caught up
on the Sweetwood Finances, then
had a frustrating BoD meeting when the chat program kept locking up my computer.
I hope we have that figured out for the next time. Early in the month we went
to the Chicago area to visit my mom for Mother’s Day. BelSummer
prep happened off and on all month. We had to remeasure the Dearinth
since the paths were too overgrown to follow. And the mowing of it was quite
a struggle for me this time but I also actually managed one full push up (along
with several 3/4 push ups and 10 bent knee push ups). I had about three days
with a headache or headache hangover but it has been worse in the past. We
rented several movies. I had a very strange experience of suddenly getting
a desire for roast chicken while we were shopping, buying a roast chicken
at the grocery store, and coming home to eat it as if I were starving, which
I am definitely not.
Copyright © 2005 Kyril Oakwind