Night Before Leaving
Tuesday August 23, 2005
Faol wanted to give the fantasy another try this morning but I had a headache and didn’t feel well. This last week has been difficult. The first few days were fun and I think we all had a good time, though he was much more focused on Joyful than on me.
The weekend with its drama was wearing and I needed time to myself to recover from it, which I haven’t had since she got here, except for sleeping time. I have also found it somewhat difficult overlapping. Joyful has her own way of doing things and has a tendency to behave as if she is assuming that is the way things should be done (all in a manner that suggests she is totally unaware of behaving that way). It takes effort to defend against that all the time if I want something done in a way I prefer and I don’t feel comfortable about always telling her to do it my way. I am sure it is all with the best of intentions it is just that we do things differently and I am used to being able to do it my way when I am here, just as no doubt she is also. However, I am hoping that with more experience we will work out the necessary boundaries for happy co-habitating.
Joyful had arranged to be away for the day before I was leaving, which I very much appreciated. Faol decided that we might go to a movie if I could hurry up and get ready without doing my morning routines, which I did, and off we went to see Four Brothers. It was a pretty intense and violent movie but good despite that. I found out later it was a remake of a John Wayne movie.
We dashed home for Faol to get ready in 5 min and leave for work. I called Tom and we talked for more than two hours. Then I spent more than that working on the finances, which I have not had an opportunity to do all week so am behind. I didn’t quite catch up though I tried. Ah well… next time. I wanted to take out the garbage cans but had to move the Firefly to do it since it was blocking the path. I found the spare key and had no trouble backing it up. I moved the cans to the street. There was a big spider on one of the handles but I didn’t realize it until I felt something move against my finger but the can was on the street then. I let go and looked. What I saw was a big brown body the size of my thumbnail with legs held tightly against its body tucked into the handle. If it had gotten on me I would have been freaked but somehow I only felt like being cautious and didn’t flinch or get upset at all. Then I tried to move the car back where it had been but it is a stick and it kept dying every time I tried to go forward. After about 4 tries of it lurching forward a foot and then dying I gave up and left it though Faol will probably have to move it to park in the drive.
I am watching Stargate Atlantis
now. I hope that Faol will have energy and we can spend some time cuddling
and making love to say goodbye tonight. I am almost all packed and ready to
go, at least as much as I can at this point.
Copyright © 2005 Kyril Oakwind