Kyril's Journal -- September 6, 2005

Busy Morning

Tuesday September 6, 2005

I had an appointment for a mammogram this morning so got up early, meditated, then took a shower. Before we left I looked for my books on coaching as I wanted to take one to read but I couldn’t find them. Both Tom and I distinctly remember me unpacking them.

I drove first as I have decided to make more of an effort to drive in town but after only 30 minutes I could feel it in my right forearm and elbow. Apparently the situation with my arm and hand doesn’t like driving. And I realized the pain I have been having on the left side of my neck may be from driving on Saturday, at least, it seems to have started about then.

It was about 10 yrs since my last mammogram and though the machine hasn’t changed I certainly have. I remember thinking that it was rather painful when they squish the breast but it wasn’t bad at all this time. It was quick and easy really. Another difference was that the images go to another building to be looked at by the radiologist. If they need more images they will contact me and I will have to go back in again. It seems like a lot of trouble to put the patient, in this case me, through. Last time I had to have more images due to dense breast tissue so I am expecting they will want more. And it will most likely cost more, sigh…

Afterward we went shopping. We got a can of air (with coupon and rebate we actually got the air free:) to blow the dust out of my laptop along with vitamins and some food. The mailman drove up the drive shortly after we got home with our mail and the box of clothing and other items I had packed up at Faol’s. They sent it after I left. When I opened it up there were the coaching books I had looked for earlier. Syncronicity! Another one happened today as well. The lid of the bottle of tea had a saying, something along the lines of “he who throws mud loses ground”. Yesterday I read an article about the wetlands of New Orleans and Lousiana, and how they have been “losing ground”, shrinking significantly, for lack of river mud washing down to the Delta due to the dams and other changes engineers have made to the river. This contributed to the damage from Katrina because the wetlands act as a buffer.

I did a small load of dishes, sat and read for a while, then made dinner. While dinner was cooking I did a Flylady 15 minutes going through papers in one of the kid’s boxes. Most of it is stuff that can be thrown away but still I am going through them one by one and saving things to show my children for nostalgia sake. They can throw it away if they wish when they go through it. It looks like it will take several more Flylady sessions unless I finally get motivated to spend longer at it. But it is more symbolic at this point for me anyway. It indicates that I have started and intend to get it accomplished. I didn’t really feel like doing it but I made a decision yesterday about overcoming some of the emotional malaise I have been feeling. So even if it is only making myself do 15 minutes on it a day to start with I am going to work on taking control of my emotions again.