Kyril's Journal -- September 19, 2005

Productive Day

Monday September 19, 2005

Except for the hot sex on the weekend it was otherwise a rather blah couple days. I spoke to Faol for about 20 min. on Saturday. That was nice but short. He said he wanted to call me back later but that never happened – he didn’t promise that he would though so I didn’t really expect it. I didn’t seem to have a lot of energy.

Saturday I started my juice fast but didn’t do a triple one this time so talked on the phone, was online, watched TV. I don’t know if that is the cause or one aspect of it but this time I haven’t really had any time when I felt high and clear. It wasn’t particularly creative either. Ah well… I am looking forward to the time that the room in the barn is set up.

Sunday we went out and moved some boxes in the storeroom and so began reorganizing it. We moved our old kitchen table out into the rest of the barn clearing another bit of space. I had planned on going out today to move a couple of more boxes but it didn’t happen. With my current flare up of tendinitis I really can’t do much heavy work without problems, and heavy is loosely defined as almost anything involving my hands, so Tom is doing most of it. I am uncomfortable with that. I don’t feel guilty about conceiving of projects that will involve his help when I am also doing much of the work but getting him to do the work mostly himself for my project bothers me. He seems willing to do it right now probably out of pity and concern for me.

I felt in a better mood today and when I woke up early got right to my morning routine, especially the rehabilitative exercises. Faol called and we talked for about half an hour, still half or less of our usual conversations but longer than last time. I wanted to decrease the amount of time we talked by cutting down from 7 days a week to 4 days a week but I didn’t expect that would also cut down our times by 1/3 to a 1/2 so I feel like I am in withdrawal. Gremlining and negative thoughts have been trying to get me. So far I have been catching it and stopping it but it still affects my mood some.

The cactus finally got planted today and I also transplanted the other 4 plants I brought home from Faol’s prunings. The jade plants are doing quite well, even putting out new leaves but they had very little root system. Neither did the cactus but it is growing something too though I am not sure if it is going to be a flower or another leaf yet. Hopefully now that they are in pots that can be watered from the bottom they will start pushing down roots. Faol tells me that he really likes the idea of my taking them home and growing plants here that are connected to where he lives out there. I like that too but also I just like growing houseplants. I love cactus but have had problems keeping them alive in the humidity of WI. I try not watering them often but I end up with dead dried up cactus or rotten wet ones.

We also went out to the Post Office in our town to mail my birthday gift for Faol after I wrapped and packaged it. I would ask people to send him birthday emails but by the time I actually get this posted it will be well past. I used publisher to make him a birthday card to go along with it. While there I chatted with the Post Mistress. She has been working in that Post Office for almost the whole 20 yrs we have been here.

There was an envelope for me in the mail from my mother. That was a shock but when I opened it I saw the purple pages that I had sent her with the books by Linda Howard (romance author), a current interest for her. She had marked the ones she wanted and sent me a blank check and a one-line note to buy the marked ones for her. I think that is the most I have gotten from her though in years :) She is always available when I call her on the phone and we talk a couple of times a week since Daddy died a couple of years ago.