Kyril's Journal -- October 7, 2005

A Good Day

Friday October 7, 2005

Faol woke up at 6 am again, which woke me up. He was able to go back to bed a little after 7 but it took me until 8 am trying to sleep again so basically I got about 6 1/2 hours sleep. I haven’t had more than that since I have been here. I guess it is getting to me because this morning I realized I had a yeast infection. Not a happy camper at the moment, well about that.

Faol and I had a sweet only semi-sexual interaction. He has been wonderful so far this trip and I appreciate how hard he is trying to make me happy. We talked a little this morning about some of the things on his mind, which are interfering with his sleep. One of several things is he feels like it is very hard to do the things that I need from him to be happy, though he also recognizes that he is not responsible for my being happy, he still wants me to be and needs to do what he can. He feels that much of the problem is the current circumstances of his life. I think that he doesn’t realize how different our wants and desires might really be but it doesn’t matter really, at least right now. What does matter is that each of us wants to continue and we are willing to keep trying even when there are problems.

After a brief phone call to Joyful we headed out to the store for necessary medication, some apple cider vinegar for a hot vinegar bath to treat the symptoms, and some other food items. I think we still need to go to another store to get the last two items on the shopping list. It was late when we went out so we barely got back from running our errands with time for him to get dressed while I got the tea ready that he takes to work each day.

After he left I got the bathroom rug in the washer and called Joyful back. She didn’t get much of a talk with Faol and he wanted me to contact her but I told him I was going to call her anyway. We spoke for about two hours while I put away the clothes I washed yesterday, watered the basil plant, hung up Faol’s leather clothing, etc. I called Tom and started making the crust for the quiche but I was tired and it was affecting me. Normally I multi-task pretty easily but I found it difficult now. I finally had to get off the phone to focus on making the filling for the crust.

While dinner was cooking I watched SF Friday and wrote some letters to a couple of angry women who had responded to Faol’s contacts on a lifestyle website with very angry and hurtful emails. He wanted me to write them and let them know that he was for real. He left it to me to say whatever I wanted to, even speaking of his faults, if I wished. That took a couple of hours in between watching tv, and spending commercials doing dishes, and cleaning up after dinner.

I honestly don’t know where the day went. It doesn’t seem like I got enough done to account for a full day but Faol will be home in half an hour. He called a bit over an hour ago to talk for a few minutes. Every few sentences he has to bang the receiver to clear it so I can understand him. I assume it is a contact problem but the pay phone is the only way he can call, other than some kind of major emergency or something. He asked me how I was doing and chatted for a bit. He had really called to let me know that he would water the lawn when he got home so that I wouldn’t have to but I watered it yesterday so it doesn’t need to get done today. He was happy about that as he is tired too. I imagine that he is more tired than I am the last workday of the week when he hasn’t been sleeping well.