Last night I had an interesting dream or at least the fragment I remember was. I was crawling or pulling myself through a ditch-like groove, which was filled with very white snow. Tree roots had grown into the ditch but were covered with the snow as well. So what makes this so interesting? It was very sensual. I could feel the cold of the snow on my breasts and belly, on my legs. It was cold but not painful or unpleasant. Instead it was just an intense physical sensation. Dreams like that are almost always highly pleasant for me. I wake up feeling good but don't really want to wake up. Sometimes they turn into sex dreams probably because of the connection to physical pleasure but they don't have to, to be dreams filled with ecstasy. Then I always wonder what triggered such a dream. Did I do something particularly good in the previous day, or at least good from the viewpoint of my subconscious? If it is, in essence, a reward what is it a reward for? You see if I knew that I could possibly duplicate it and bring on such dreams deliberately.
I used to do dream incubation and various techniques to induce lucid dreams. But in the last 7-8 years I have been getting up to an alarm and rushing off to work or to school. That interferes too much with dream work, for me.
Today is my birthday. I can remember when birthdays were approached with anticipation. They were a special day. There would be a party, and presents, and cake, and ice cream. But now it has become more of a hassle than fun. My partner and I have birthdays two days apart and his occurs around father's day each year. So it ends up being a scheduling thing to find time to take the children out to buy gifts for the other. It should be fun to shop but we don't have that much money to spend and neither of us has an easy time figuring out a list of possible choices. Then getting the kids ready to go, the two hour commute time to town and back, rush hour traffic (sometimes), getting back just in time to start dinner, etc.
The good part of it is that we make a special dinner for the other person. This year he wants barbeque ribs for his birthday and a dinner salad for Father's day. I like lobster newberg but since I don't really want to spend the money for lobster, prices being what they are, he just makes it with the imitation lobster chunks. I know some people really dislike them. And certainly to compare them to lobster… well they are nothing like lobster. But I like the way they taste. I just don't mistake them as having anything to do with lobster. Usually he makes me strawberry cake too but this year I felt like having something different so he is buying me pecan pie, which we will have with raspberry ripple Bavarian ice cream with chocolate chunks. I have no idea how all those flavors will go together but I am willing to find out.
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