This year has gone by so fast. I look back to the beginning of 2000 and it just doesn't seem that long ago. But here it is almost over.
Last night I came home and put out milk and honey, and bread and butter for the Faeries,which I do at each of the high holy days. And I put a candle outside in our ritual area to light the way for the dead on that night of the thinnest veil between the worlds.
Tuesday began as a very distracted day. I didn't feel all here or fully solid in a lot of ways. I really wanted to and felt the need to spend the day walking on the land, meditating, working with oracles, perhaps tarot or I-Ching but I had to go to school. Gradually that liminal sense of being in two worlds at once faded and my classes occupied my mind. By the time I got home from class, well after dark, I was in the world again. This is one of the hardest aspects of not being able to be a full time priestess for me, the world intrudes on sacred time. It isn't bad enough that it intrudes on general personal time with all of its shoulds and must-do-nows but that it intrudes into my religion, into my sacred time, that is simply not acceptable. But I don't feel that I have much choice, if I am to complete my school courses with grades good enough to get me into Graduate School.
Copyright © 2000 Kyril Oakwind