Today is a gray and rainy day. It was very interesting this morning, though. I was sitting at my computer looking outside and when I looked out the east window it was raining but when I looked out my south window it was not. The house seemed to be half in the rain and half not. What fun! I was at the threshold between two worlds:)
Later I concentrated on schoolwork and read a fictional work by Ruth L. Ozeki, titled My Year of Meats, for my Women's Studies class. It is a rather interesting story of a Japanese-American woman who is doing documentaries on the American Wife for a Beef company. So the main event is cooking a beef dish. It is intended to sell beef to the Japanese along with American values. Her descriptions of what scenarios are being chosen are quite interesting and enlightening. Her position between the worlds gives her a unique point of view.
Straddling categories can be freeing, though often it can be lonely too. As a bi-woman I could be looked at as standing in the garden gate with a foot on each side. It has its advantages and disadvantages. As a Pagan with both a traditional Gardnerian focus and an eclectic CAW focus I again have a foot in each camp. That's what I like about lucid dreaming too, that one is both awake and not awake, dreaming yet traveling through other dimensions, other worlds. Someone told me that they were concerned with (their perception) of a lack in my ability to travel the worlds. I look at my life and find that I am so frequently in more than one world at the same time that their concern seems unfounded to me. It is hard to know about the inner life of others. For some it is a richly peopled, filled existence. For others a barren landscape. I think of an iceberg as a convenient metaphor here - 1/3 floating out of water, easy to see but the other 2/3 below the surface, unseen, perhaps unknown, sometimes even dangerous.
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