I have gotten into the habit of emailing my new friend every morning. It is practically how I start my day and I am already realizing that next week when I go to Grow Closer I may be in withdrawal. Actually I don't usually miss people when I am not with them as I am involved with what is happening at the moment so I just miss them when I talk on the phone or something occurs that brings them to the forefront of my mind. But at the moment the new relationship energy has him pretty close to the forefront of my mind most of the time. Maybe the real test is whether or not he will miss not having some contact with me every day.
There was a big storm here last night, lots of lightening so we shut down all the computers. And the power did go out while I was on the phone with him. I have been avoiding using his name since I don't know how he feels about being that out as it were. People we both know might see it and I do write some pretty personal things here. I should ask him - it would be easier than say him, or my new love all the time:) Anyway I was talking on the portable phone and it went dead when the power shut off. Luckily the other phone still works when the power is out. But we do seem to have a problem with phones some. He actually had the phone line stolen from his house and had to get something done about it to restore phone service and blew out two cell phones trying to talk to me as well. I hope this isn't a trend.
It was still raining this morning when I woke up and the water was happily dripping down the wood stove chimney and on to the floor as well as dripping from there down the ceiling and down the wall. It is probably rotting away parts of the ceiling and will eventually fall in, or so I believe. Tom on the other hand is more of the "it's raining, can't fix the leak when it's raining - it isn't leaking now that it isn't raining so don't need to fix it now", bent, which I find very annoying but I don't have the skill to do it, nor the head for heights, nor the physical stability to be working on the roof, so am more or less stuck with it.
I am still finding it difficult to return to a normal routine. It seems that there is something every other day or so to alter it, whether it is phone calls during my exercise time, or the heat advisories which make it more difficult to continue exercising (though I am attempting to be diligent about it), or other kinds of interruptions. And I haven't pursued working on the altars that I was working on before Starwood or my personal priestess training. I have been doing the old, I'll get back to it after Starwood, ok after Grow Closer, well after Pagan Pride Day, maybe after the Mysteries, ok definitely after I get back from my trip to CA the end of September. Looks to me like I have to get disciplined again and set myself a schedule and stick to it, something that I find difficult for my Gemini self. I like to have the leeway to alter plans and decisions if I feel like doing it but then I don't accomplish things and I start feeling badly about it. It is sometimes far too easy for me to go with the flow, if going with the flow means letting go and not working towards my goals. Maybe it is my Venus in Leo that inclines me to indulgence or maybe it is my Saturn in Virgo that thinks I am not accomplishing as much as I should. Hmmm something else to think about it.
Tom and I went into town to do some shopping. After not buying anything at Starwood I found a purple sarong that wasn't too too expensive and bought it. And I wanted to get a gift for Phoenix to give her after her initiatory experience this Saturday. I found something I hope she will like.
When we drove out though we discovered that our driveway was severely washed away and rutted from last night's storm. Tom had to grade it when we got home so that Phoenix could drive in. While he was doing that F. called again today. That is three times in a row and I was almost speechless at first. Well, I have already written far too much about the affect that man has on me so I will try and skip it this time. He asked me for a picture so I have been going through some of my pictures but pictures of me are really rare. We have a lot of pictures of the land, of frogs on the window, or baby raccoons on the deck, or a deer eating lichen off a tree growing in the deck. We have pictures of my children and some of my husband but few of me. And even fewer, perhaps two or three, that I think are not too bad. It made it quite difficult and then there are other people in the pictures that I like. So I have to crop them out as I don't have their permission to send them to him. Tom is being a dear though and scanning them in for me.
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