This morning I woke up early again as I had an appointment with my dental hygienist. I started making Tea and went to download my email. Usually I scan through all my morning email while the tea is brewing, delete anything I am not going to answer, and then let the rest filter into the appropriate folders for later. But Jack uses the kind of scan where the entire program is sent with each huge scan so it took about 15 minutes to download the scans he send me as treasurer for SweetWood Temenos. That held up the rest of the email. So I finally tossed a bagel in the toaster and then went to scan my email. The sudden beep beep beep of the smoke alarm sent me scurrying to the toaster to unplug it. I don't know why it didn't shut off but the bagel was well, really toast, crispy, black, and the house was smoky. I didn't even notice it happening as I was so focused on what I was doing. I had to go tell Tom why there was an annoying sound that wouldn't stop. He was in bed and only ½ conscious but he had to get up to pull the battery on the smoke alarm as it is high enough on the wall I can't reach it even with a chair. But at least now we know it still works. LOL
I had a pleasant 45 minutes at the dentist as she cleaned my teeth and chatted away. We talked about stories people tell her in the chair, why neither of us wants to work at a nursing home, marriages and the problems some other people have had with them, a friend who went back to school to become a guidance counselor and the Platteville program she was in (actually was an interesting idea for me because UW-Platteville is no farther away than Madison so might be an alternative to online programs or reapplying to the one that turned me down). So we had a friendly conversation. I learned several things I didn't know, got a tip about my education, not a bad beginning to a day.
So far the day is cooler than it has been the last few days, sunny but with a wonderful cool breeze. It probably would be a great day to get out and do something but I find myself feeling very laid back and somewhat ambitionless. But even stranger I don't seem to feel like I ought to be doing something. I feel relaxed and peaceful at the moment. I think it is just that I am happy. It seems strange to me though as I have been under a lot of stress the last few years, and Tom is pretty much between projects right now which means little to no income coming in, and no idea when that will change. But here I am, happy anyway. Isn't love amazing!
I went out to the orchard to do magick. The Sun is still up and it is approaching the full moon and I had work that I wanted to do. Without going into much detail there is something about this way of working that works for me. It is somewhat shamanic, my mind moves in ways I can't quite explain, flowing between worlds, and I am apart from the world of cares. I feel such certainty and connection. Without knowing what the path is I can feel it. There is quietness within me. It is something that happens when I am there and when I return it stays for me for a long time. My mind right now is filled with these words but underneath is quiet. I could stay here forever if I knew how.
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