I woke up tired and somewhat drained from our weekend activities. After people left on Sunday Tom and I just sat around and watched TV. We went to bed early. This morning I read the book Corey gave me for my birthday in June. It was excellent I thought. Really my type of book, a fantasy of magickally getting to otherworlds/dimensions with gods and pantheons and magick and intrigue, plot twists, and good and evil which were not necessarily the obvious concepts. Of course it is a trilogy and this is book one. It is Past Imperative: Round One of the Great Game by Dave Duncan. I spent all morning immersed in it and had a lovely time.
When my friend called I was near the end of the book and anyone who knows how hard it is for me to put a book down at all, let alone close to the end, will, of course, recognize that I have it bad, when I say I didn't mind putting the book down for one minute, not the slightest twinge, as soon as I heard his voice. We talked of many things and as usual he seems to trigger chains of thought that go on after we have spoken. My mind comes back to our conversation and continues various lines of thought. He asked me what I like to do for entertainment and I wasn't sure how to answer. I don't really know any more. Other than TV we don't do anything for entertainment, exactly. Almost every thing I do other than hot tubbing and sex has an element of work to it. I do ritual, which I do love and can be quite ecstatic about but it isn't entertainment. I organize, I publish, I email, I mow the Dearinth, or work on other things but all of it has an element of work even though I enjoy doing it. We don't go out to restaurants; it costs too much money. We don't go to clubs, or concerts, or dancing, or parties, or dinners, or, or, or. They either require disposable income of which we have little or we would have to drive an hour into Madison to do it and I don't like to do that alone, and Tom doesn't like going to all that trouble to be with people. So I didn't know what to say to him when he asked what I like to do for entertainment. Actually I think that is kind of sad. It is a good thing that I can have a lot of fun while doing the kinds of things that I do or it would be a lot worse. This man shows me a lot of things about myself that I haven't been paying attention to. I am gaining a lot in that way. I don't know what I do for him but I hope that he gets something deep out of this relationship as well.
There is another heat advisory for today. Tom is out working on the car and cleaning things up and doing things. Me I am sitting down, drinking iced tea. I got up and started laundry and started to get a few things ready to go to Grow Closer. That was enough to start a headache and for me to feel the heat. This is kind of a role reversal as it used to be he would wilt at the slightest heat and I could continue to do things, take care of the kids, cook dinner (damn it's my turn to make dinner tonight), etc. Still there is magick in the air and I can feel it. My spirit is ready to soar even if my body is in need of cool rest.
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