I woke up about 3:30 am and just could not get back to sleep. After lying there for an hour I gave up and got out of bed. So I spent several hours happily emailing F. and M. who is one of his other lovers. We have begun a correspondence and she seems quite charming. It turns out that she is a Gardnerian initiate and comes from the same Kentucky line that I do. So she is at least a "cousin". I find that connection to be quite remarkable under the circumstances and a joy as well. I am hoping that we will become fast friends. This is the way I am most comfortable doing poly - becoming friends with the other lovers of my lovers. For me it is about extended family and tribal connections. Loving F. brings me great joy and a sense of connection to those he loves. I can open my heart to them because of their connection to him and if they accept my connection to them then it strengthens all of our relationships.
F. called today and we talked for something like two hours. Between emailing him several times a day and speaking with him on the phone for a minimum of an hour I am not getting as much done as I should but on the other hand I am incredibly happy. But I am determined to get back on track after this weekend and enjoy my time speaking to him but also do the things I need to do. I have begun to feel so much energy that I will need to work on things just to dissipate it. And I am losing weight. Perhaps I lost some at Grow Closer and didn't realize it. It is very odd but I am down to a weight that I haven't been in 5 years. I used to say that when I was happy I lost weight without doing anything about it but thought that as I aged I had lost that ability. Apparently not! Now if I could lose a bit more I could roll the clock back 17 years:) well at least in that one area. Though happiness is a potent drug. My knees don't seem to be bothering me as much lately either.
I am so blissed out today. I have been dancing about, humming, dancing to the rhythm of the printer as it prints out the flyers for Pagan Pride Day to take to the Madison area Pagan Tea & Talk. Energy is streaming off me in ribbons of light and ecstasy. Tom finds me quite amusing. So do I! What fun! I have some work to do tomorrow once the moon is new. I hope I am still filled with this ecstasy tomorrow because it will be incredible.
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