Tom and I had a "discussion" on Saturday morning that pretty much affected the day. We had planned to go out and do Yule shopping in Madison, run errands, etc. but we didn't manage it. I felt pretty down most of the day. He went out and sat on the deck for a while thinking about what we had been talking about, then came in and made his pronouncement about what he wanted and didn't want. I wasn't thrilled about it and felt that our goals have diverged so far that we might not be able to stay together if I continue to work for mine. However, after talking with F. I felt better. He assured me that we could find a way to balance all of our goals. I hope he is right.
Sunday we went into Madison, did our errands and shopping, and came home tired. I was feeling a little dispirited though. We are very tight money wise and it is very hard to find someone a gift for next to nothing. We have trimmed our gift list and not bought F., R., or M. anything, though I don't like that. All the things I saw that I liked for others was way above our budget.
Today I got up and got moving again. It was a reasonably productive day. I did my exercises, did some wash, worked on astrology, cleaned the microwave, sinks, and toilet, took a walk, answered email, spent and hour and a half on the phone, tested the hot tub and shocked it, etc. When Tom came home and brought in the mail my rainbow bracelet was there. Tam repaired it for me and finally returned it. Yay!
However, Tom told me when he got home, that he had finished programming the part of the project that he was supposed to do. So his up to 6 weeks has turned into one week. He has a meeting tomorrow and it is possible that they will come up with something else they want him to do. They also said that when the rest of the team catches up with him there will be more for him to do but who knows when or how much that will be. He was upset about the money but he was smiling and filled with some energy. It was such a relief for him not to have to continue commuting into Madison. I wish he could harness some of that and focus it on getting some kind of work that he could accept from home.
Then again if he got a project in Los Angeles we could stay with F. and they could get to know each other. He doesn't think that is too good of a plan either but I think a 1-3 mo. long project would give us all a chance to see how we work together and whether there is any chance of our being together for the long haul.
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