I woke up depressed again today. When F. called I found myself starting to cry. We talked about my being depressed and he tried to cheer me up. At first it wasn't very effective, though he certainly was able to alter my mood. After a time he talked about uses for teleportation devices. I know it probably sounds somewhat bizarre but that cheered me up. We talked about using it as a propulsion method for boats and cruises to Hawaii that went very fast. Sheer fantasy perhaps but it delighted me, nonetheless. And he told me to dance when I got off the phone. I told him that I danced when I was happy but he said the pattern was already there so I should just dance. He thought I would get happy if I danced and he was right. When I got off I put on Rusted Root - their "When I Awoke album", which is really my favorite. And I danced a bit as I cleaned the house. Then I got serious and just danced. It was great! As I got hot I began to strip. At some point Tom came in and watched me dance, then wanted to take pictures. I was embarrassed but let him do it. I just closed my eyes, which is the way I usually dance anyway, so that I wouldn't be as aware of him doing it but could get into the dancing. The more I danced the more clothes came off so the pictures are definitely not available for anyone else to see. He even took a 15 min. video clip but the camera was sideways and I don't think we have an editing program that will let him rotate the whole video clip so it is a little peculiar watching me dance on my side. Finally I collapsed on the floor and just danced with my hands. He took a picture of that too :) Once I recovered he danced with me for a bit and we made love. It turned out to be a lovely day.
Afterwards I still got some cleaning done, took a box out to the storage room and got things out of the dining room from cleaning the hall closet last week, wrapped the Yule gifts, and got the last box ready to mail to my parents. I didn't get as much done as I had hoped I would get done today but more than I expected to when I woke up still depressed. At the moment I am pretty tired since I spent quite a few hours dancing about while working this afternoon but I don't seem to be depressed.
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