Last night Tom and I did another Gardnerian circle. I loved it but he was caught up in experiencing the ending of Samhain, the long slow death of things in his life. He felt that he wasn't really a priest anymore. He can fulfill that role as far as the actions are concerned but he didn't feel the power anymore. It was very sad for us both but in some way it was also freeing for me as now I can move on for myself without waiting for him to be ready to join me.
This morning I woke early and felt energized. I did my exercises for the first time in about a week and a half, and cleaned some. I went shopping, came home and made cookies, and packed for Samhain at Fireheart. So I have spent the afternoon running around and now suddenly I feel exhausted. Something about going to bed about midnight and waking up about 6 am seems to tire me out. I am still excited about my trip though. F. will be there:)
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