Wow! I had a great time last night. We were watching tv and Tom and I started fooling around and things progressed from there to an unexpected encounter. This morning I got up and didn't quite remember when we went to sleep and our clothes are still in the living room. For all the processing we are doing there are some pretty good things going on too:)
My plans for today are to get the other half of the storage room walls and ceiling washed so we can paint it, hopefully before I leave on Thursday. And I want to make sure I am actually completely unpacked from Samhain (I am pretty sure that I am) so that I can begin to pack for going out to LA on Thursday. I went over my list and updated it for the season, more or less. The weather out there is still a mystery to me. The list is printed out and ready to sit around for the next few days while I add things to it. Then there is more cleaning to do in the house though I can't say I have made progress in the things that Tom would like me to but once the storage room is done I can move things out there when I get back, and make more space in the house.
I still have to decide something about working and move in that direction. Last night I dreamed that I was giving 100 million dollars to my local county to help out my neighbors with property taxes and because I wanted to affect how they treated people. There was also something about police attacking a "farm" where people were protecting a crop of apples that when eaten, made people mind-readers. Odd dream, but I liked the part about having so much money in so many banks that giving this amount of money wasn't a problem at all :) I don't know whether the dream was strictly wish fulfillment or whether it was telling me something about the abundance in my life right now. In any case, I could use the money in my waking life.
Strangely enough after my separation anxiety of a couple of nights ago I realized today that F. has become part of the fabric of my daily life. He usually calls me mid-morning and we have the kind of conversations that live-in couples do. We talk about our night, what we are going to do today, who we talked to on the phone, our plans for the future, etc. And he often calls later in the evening as well and we touch base again. While he may not call every day - we have missed an occasional one due to life's busyness - he is so much a part of my life now. It would leave a large hole if something happened to our relationship. But he tells me he is in it for the long haul and I believe him.
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