This week I have watered the garden, worked on cleaning up the dead leaves and dead plants, gathered some of the garbage that is blown around the garden (it has been neglected for a while), and done other little chores around the house, like sweeping and dishes. One day we went to thrift stores and F. bought me a couple of tops that I think are too small and way too young but I liked them anyway. Truthfully I don't know where I would wear them though.
We ate at an Ethiopian restaurant for lunch and I enjoyed the food. It has really been fun for me as I don't normally get to eat in restaurants at all and we have been going to various ethnic ones so I get a lot of variety and wonderful new tastes. At the Ethiopian restaurant there was a buffet with soft, flat bread in rolls. One uses the bread to scoop/pick up the rest of the food and eats with it. I enjoyed it.
I also had a major emotional day. Tom agreed that I could sleep with F. without a condom, joining in F.'s condom group, then changed his mind the next day. My other lover was also upset about it and I had a day of emailing back and forth with both of them, talking with Tom on the phone for hours and the upshot of it all is that I am no longer in a condom compact with my other lover and will wait to join F.'s for a little longer while Tom and I hash out some issues. But the day was miserable and very emotional for me. I don't really understand it but I have a very intense desire to make love with F. without a condom and he also feels this way. It almost hurts not to be able to.
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