Last night we decided to stay in, order out pizza, and watch TV. It was nice to relax and hang out together before F. had to go to work. Earlier I had talked to him a bit about being depressed and he brought it up with R. So we talked things out a bit and I felt better afterwards.
Today we started out the day with lovemaking, an excellent way to begin the day I think. My lips are still sore though so most of the kissing was very gentle. I am a rather oral person and find that when I can't use my mouth for some reason during loving it tends to decrease my sense of pleasure. And I was aware of that but we managed to make me happy anyway. F. has a work day scheduled for today with a friend coming over to help him work on repair/remodeling his house. And I am planning on getting out in the garden and getting some more done there. I leave on Friday so today and tomorrow are my last days to get something accomplished there.
I don't want to leave. I want to be home. I just don't want to have to leave here to do it. I have to find a way to come back soon.
As it turned out the workday never materialized. I did some work in the back garden and later we went out to a Japanese restaurant and I had sushi. Then we went to a store that sells shoes because F. wanted to replace my old worn out hiking/walking shoes. So he did. It is funny but I find it very touching. I have thoroughly enjoyed being taken to restaurants, movies, China Town, seeing places, especially the Lake Shrine and Gardens, but somehow the mundanity of buying me everyday shoes, the care and awareness of my needs that it reflects is on a whole different level than the items of play. It makes him a part of my life in a way that entertaining me does not. And I will think of him whenever I wear them.
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