Well yesterday I was wavering about being clergy and today I found myself posting a somewhat inspiring argument about sticking with it all in response to someone else who is letting their membership in CAW lapse. I spoke about my own experience of the magick, of the wonder, of the relationships formed with people from many different states, of the loves found, the tribe loved, etc. And of course, these are many of the reasons that I am working toward clergy, along with my desire to serve this population and to serve my Gods through this means as well. So there I am talked myself back into it. And in our conversation this morning F. also spoke of the need for me to continue with it, what he saw as the role I could fill and how I could do it. He can be very persuasive.
Tom and I spent a couple of hours processing my relationship with F., the changes it is producing in our lives, and possible future changes. He had spent half the previous night thinking about it, going round and round about some ideas that he was fixated on and seemed to lead to only negative consequences for us all. But after we discussed them today he felt better about it. I know that we are not done working on this but as long as we are still talking and making progress on it I can deal with it.
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