I went to bed around 7:30 last night. This morning I got up and did my morning exercises and attacked more of the old files, clearing out another grocery bag of paper. The two-drawer file cabinet is cleaned out now and I began to transfer files from two of the boxes of files in the living room. One set is astrology files the other set is CAW and nest files, various rituals I have collected, etc. In the midst of this F. called and told me about his day and the party he went to. I listened and tried to make appropriate comments but the more I listened to his voice the more I hurt. When R. called and he got off I was pretty depressed, deep in emotional pain, and have not been able to pull out of it all day. We went in the hot tub for a while and I continued to work on the files but I feel like every movement is a major effort. I know that basically I am doing this to myself. No one else is, but I haven't yet been able to overcome it. I just hurt.
In the evening I talked with Callista about it all. She has some experience that was relevant to my situation that helped me. It was a very good conversation and for the first time since this situation began I started to feel a little better emotionally.
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