I got up, made tea and brought it to Tom in the tent, then made my breakfast. We had a workshop to go to in the morning. Ronn and Raven of the Spiritweaver's Branch of CAW were giving a workshop on aspecting deity with the intention of making love. They pointed out the potential dangers of it and the reasons one might wish to do so with anecdotes of experiences, their own and others. It was an interesting workshop. One of the points made is that the deities don't have physical bodies and can enjoy the pleasures of the flesh through being hosted in our bodies. But their ethics and awarenesses of consequences are different than our own so it is wise to have an agreement ahead of time. For example, it is a good idea when hosting Pan to have an agreement that he won't do anything that would get one in trouble with the laws of our society or that might harm another. While some might feel it inappropriate to restrict a Deities behavior it is good to remember that they don't have to live in this world but we do. And I know that I would not take "the devil made me do it" as an excuse for harming someone. Neither would I take "Pan just wanted to do her" as an excuse for inappropriate sexual behavior. Then my own view of aspecting deity includes the difficulty of separating out the coloration our own personality, desires, shadow, etc. give to anything we might be getting from the deities we host.
Sometime I fell off my sandal when my foot slid sideways. It was only an inch but it hurt my ankle and I ended up limping about. With Starwood being a large area and workshops spread out it made things more difficult. I ended up putting my regular shoes on to provide more support. I wanted to go shopping but Tom insisted that we only look down one aisle of the merchants area then return to the camp site. He was being very protective of my ankle. Later during the evening Daniel rubbed my ankle with arnica cream which I was told would help quite a bit.
Later in the evening I called F. but he wasn't in. I ended up talking to his houseguest/renter (he moved in recently as he didn't have a place to go and is short of money. It is supposed to turn into a rental situation shortly though.) instead. F. called back but missed me. Tom was tired and went to bed. I went to bed with him to cuddle for a bit then got back up to wander about. I called F. again and we talked.
I had a difficult conversation with someone. We were talking about restarting the sexual part of our relationship but for various reasons F. and I had agreed that it might be better if I only did so when F. was there. This didn't sit with my friend very well, especially as F. was not at Starwood and would not be at the next festival either. He made some inappropriate and untrue comments about F's character and then walked off. I was very upset about it all so I went back to my tent, woke up Tom and we spent much time talking and processing.
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